Watch The Missing Chapter

Sometimes a story is better heard than read.

I’m reading The Missing Chapter from the beginning, one chapter at a time — although apparently social media has very definite opinions about how long I’m allowed to talk, so some chapters arrive in several parts.

This is the place where you can watch the whole thing in the right order, without hunting through Instagram or TikTok trying to work out where Part Three disappeared to.

These aren’t polished audiobooks or studio recordings. They’re me, reading the novel I wrote, occasionally stumbling over my own sentences, probably drinking too much coffee, and discovering that some passages are considerably harder to read aloud than they were to write.

Start at Chapter One, jump in wherever you like, or follow along as I add new recordings.

Headphones optional. Early-90s soundtrack strongly encouraged.

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  • 01/09/2026

    Three words in a chat window...'I Loved You'...

    Chapter One Part One The Shape I Remember…

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part One

    It started with three words from someone I had loved when I was seventeen:

    “I loved you.”

    The only problem was that he said them thirty-three years late.

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part Three

    Part Three

    Memory is a funny bloody thing.

    You can forget whole conversations and entire years, then remember exactly how a room felt, what somebody was wearing, or the song playing when something happened.

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part Four

    Part Four

    At seventeen, you think you understand what is happening while you’re living it.

    Mostly, you don’t.

    Sometimes it takes thirty-three years — and three unexpected words — before you can see the shape of it properly.

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part Five

    Chapter One Part Five

    There was the version of this story I remembered.

    And then there was what actually happened.

    The further I went back, the less those two things seemed to be the same.

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part Six

    Chapter One Part Six

    Some memories survive because they were enormous.

    Others survive because of one tiny, completely ordinary detail that somehow refuses to disappear.

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    • 29/08/2025

    Chapter One Part Seven

    Chapter One Part Seven

    First love isn’t only the person.

    It’s the music. The places. Their family. The stupid jokes. The ordinary afternoons. And the version of yourself that only existed when you were with them.